Finding a New Place
Woman in the Middle | December 2, 2015So, the holidays are upon us. Two years after losing Brother Dear and Mom In Law, I wouldn’t say we are struggling. But we are , I think, still searching to find our balance and our new holiday place.
Thanksgiving is different because Brother Dear was a big eater. Even when he was sick he could down a really big meal. I had to make so much food to make sure there was enough. Now I have a whole lot of left overs! I miss seeing him heaping his plate, twice, and relishing the meal.
Last year for Christmas we went to Las Vegas. We decided after that to stay home this year. I am looking forward to all our traditional things like pizza and church on Christmas Eve and biscuits with chocolate gravy on Christmas morning. I am looking forward to new things like eating out for Christmas dinner at a fancy place and watching the kittens play with all the paper and bows Christmas morning. But, in some ways, I wish we were going back to Vegas. It was so distracting to pack up and leave town, especially since we were going to such a distracting place like Vegas. Maybe next year….
I know we will eventually settle into new traditions. There are bound to be boyfriends and even sons in law in our future. Maybe even grandkids. But, until then, we will take each Thanksgiving and Christmas as they come. We will wiggle around a bit for the next few years, trying to find our new and comfortable place.
If you are trying to find your new comfortable place this holiday season, I wish you all the best. I know it isn’t easy sometimes.
Ever since my mom passed away, our family holiday traditions have gone kaput! Now we don’t have holiday celebrations anymore. I’m lucky if I can get my brothers and dad to go to dinner on Christmas or Christmas Eve, or Easter or Thanksgiving. It’s so sad.